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My new mentor

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Last week I had my annual performance review at Coast Hills. Performance reviews always make me anxious. I get nervous and I don’t know why. I guess the part of me that wants to please others wants to know if I’m meeting the expectations set for me. If you’re wondering, I still have a job.

As with anything, there is room for improvement. Nobody’s perfect. Well, except Jesus. I heard a funny story about a friend of mine who’s teacher would never give 100% on tests even if you got all the answers right. The reasoning behind was because no one is perfect.

Anyways….

Back to my story. Room for improvement. One good thing about these performance reviews is being able to evaluate how you’re doing and where you can improve. One area that we identified that needed worked on was mentorship. Mike and I are working on pouring into Daniel and Thomas (our lighting volunteers). We’re about to start reading Velvet Elvis and will be discussing together.

I also put down under my self-evaluation that I needed a mentor.
I wanted someone who I could look up to.
That I could confide in.
Who could hold me accountable.
That would share their insights with me.
Who is spiritually mature.

One name kept popping up in my head again and again. So last Sunday I went to him and asked if he would be my mentor. He agreed and we decided to meet for lunch every other Wednesday. Today was our first day.

We went out for sushi at a place in Aliso Viejo.
Or was it Laguna Niguel? I can never tell.

Salmon and Seaweed Sushi Rolls - Satsukiphoto © 2008 Alpha | more info (via: Wylio) Since I haven’t spent a whole lot of time with him in a 1:1 situation, most of our conversation was just talking about how I ended up where I am today. It was a good talk. Some things are still not easy to share. Then there are other things that I’m proud to talk about how God has gotten me through.

In short, I’m really glad that I have someone that I can just talk about life with, help me grow spiritually and can be a voice to help guide me during this crazy time in my life.

We will also be going through the book of 1 John. It’s been a while since I last read 1 John so this will be nice. I’m quite excited about the whole idea!

Alright, time for me to hit the sack.
Peace out.
-i

My Blogatical // Goodbye

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If there’s one thing about my walk with God that I wish I could change it would be this: every time life gets rough, I drift away from Him. Lately my life has been full of ups and downs. Some weeks I’m great about reading and praying. Some weeks I’m not.

That needs to change. Now.

This morning, while I was in the shower, I started to pray. Didn’t plan on it. Just started talking to God. Or rather, apologizing to Him. I said I was sorry for not trusting Him. Not talking to Him. Not reading His word. I asked His forgiveness for me being an idiot and trying to do this on my own. For putting myself first. For wasting my time instead of being with Him.

I told Him I wanted to change… I just don’t know how. I asked to be told what I needed to do to fix this. I asked for strength, because there’s no way that I can change on my own. And then it hit me:

I need to take a sabbatical.

I need to take a media fast.
But it’s not so much a media fast as it is just a distractions fast.
Just a time to devote myself to prayer and God’s word.

A while back Carlos Whittaker took a sabbatical as well. He called it a Blogatical. I like that. I stole it.

But honestly, what I call it doesn’t matter. What matters is that I am going to focus on my walk with God.

So what does my ‘blogatical’ look like?

This took some thinking/praying/talking to figure out. What do I give up? How long do I give it up for? Is this like a normal fast where I don’t touch a computer at all for that time? After getting some advice from people who are smarter than me, I think I’ve settled on a plan…

Basically it will look like this:

  • No Facebook.
  • No Twitter.
  • No TV.
  • No movies.
  • No Xbox.
  • No secular music.
  • No internet.
  • No email.
  • No blog.

I am allowing three exceptions though. One exception will be work-related stuff (while I’m at work). I can still check my Coast Hills email (again, only while I’m at work). I can use the internet (only if it’s for work). But that’s it.

Another exception will be photos that need worked on for JJPhotography. I figured that is work-related and doesn’t distract me from spending time with God.

The third exception will be my personal email. Though I still only check it while at work and only for anything that’s super important. My thought was that if I’m checking it at work I won’t have a lot of time to waste and therefore I’ll be very quick about it.

The things that I’m not budging on will be Facebook, Twitter, general internet use, TV, movies, video games and secular music.

Why is secular music in there? Because I want anything I do during this time to help with me with my walk with God.

The other thing I had to figure out was how long do I go without all this stuff? I want this to stretch me. I don’t want it to be easy. But I also want something that is realistic.
A week? That seems too short.
A month? That seems too long.

How about two weeks?
Two weeks? Fourteen days? Three hundred and thirty-six hours?
Yeah, I can do that.

So to my loyal follower, and fellow Twitfaces, I say goodbye…
Well… only for two weeks that is.

While I’m away, I will be praying and journalling and reading.

I’m excited to see what God will show me during this time.

I guess about all I can say.

See ya November 12th!

-i

Getting back on track

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I’m writing this now as I’m waiting for a funeral to start. I don’t know who she is, I’m just running tech. But you know how it is, you’re at a funeral and it always gets you thinking. It’s always like a New Year’s Resolution. You make a change, and it lasts two weeks. Maybe a month.

Well my big change is that I’m going to start living for God again.

I decided to wake up early this morning to ready my Bible for the first time in a few weeks. And since I had to be at Coast by 9 (which means leave by 8), that means that I had my alarm set for 6am. Craziness! I continued on my Old Testament reading plan that I’ve been working through on YouVersion.com which consisted of Exodus 25, Psalm 85 and 2 Samuel 5.

But I don’t feel like I got anything out of it.

Nothing jumped off the page.
I don’t instantly feel better about my situation.
I didn’t say, “Oh wow, I never thought of that before.”

The only thing I can think of is that maybe I’m reading it right now to develop discipline. I need discipline again.

So I’m hoping that I’m on the up. I hate feeling like crap all the time. I realize that as time goes on there will be periods where I’m feeling good, and then something brings me back down. I’m hoping that instead of backsliding into my old ways, I can rely on God’s word and on my close friends to get me through.

And before I go, thank you for all your prayers regarding my last post. I was in a bad place and I hope I never go there again. I promise that before something like that happens again, I will attempt to reach out for support and prayer.

Until next time,
Isaiah

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