Today sucked.

Something I’ve been hoping and praying for kinda fell apart.
It hurts more than I care to admit.

This isn’t how I would have liked to start this super, crazy busy week.

Yeah I know this sounds clichéd, but with God’s help I got through the day.

This morning I fell on my knees and just told Him everything going on.
I told Him I felt lost.
I told Him I felt confused.
I told Him I needed His help… again.

I didn’t instantly feel better.
I didn’t instantly start whistling and acting like I didn’t have a care in the world.

How God answered my prayer kinda surprised me…

About 15 minutes after I got done praying I was in the car with Emma driving to her dance class.
I had Gungor’s Beautiful Things playing on the radio.
If you haven’t already, you need to buy it. Don’t think, just do it. Totally worth it.

The last track in the album came on.
We Will Run is a nine and-a-half minute song of pure awesomeness.
At 6:00 the song started to melt my face.
90 seconds later I felt myself weeping.
The last four and a half minutes of this has so much emotion in it. There isn’t a single lyric or vocal part in it, yet just through the beautiful orchestration of the song it just gets you.

I’m not going to go into exactly what the song did for me.
But you should listen to it.
Be sure to crank it once you get to the 4:44 mark!

I think God spoke to me through this song.
Even though there weren’t any words I still got this feeling.
Like He was saying, “Yeah, I know it sucks. But hang in there. I’m with you and it will get better!”

It was an amazing feeling!!

In that moment I felt God comforting me.
It was like a giant bear hug enveloping me.
It was just what I needed.

And then later, leave it up to my friends to start putting random Kung Fu Panda quotes on my Facebook wall.
They had no idea I was going through any of this junk.
(BTW, you guys all rock! You made my crappy day a lot less crappy.)

I think it’s so cool how God works through these other, seemingly unrelated, things and people to let us know He’s here and He’s with us.

So yeah, I think this is gonna hurt for a little while.

-i

PS, here’s a version of Beautiful Things with the ending of We Will Run that Gungor did at CatWest this year. It’s fantastic!