A scene from our Good Friday service

Wow, what a week!

I can’t believe how crazy the past seven days were.
It started with last Monday totally sucking and ended with today being pretty normal.
As I type this, I’m sitting next to Emma in my room while she watches Tangled (again) and I reflect on the past week…

Monday I had my heart broken.
Tuesday was the first of four 12+ hour work days.
Our Good Friday service wrecked me.
Saturday and Sunday we did five Easter services.
And today I had to go into work again to finish cleaning the stage.

That’s a lot of stuff going on in just seven days.

When I finally got home Sunday afternoon, I went into my room, shut the door, dropped my bags, plopped down in my easy chair and took a deep breath.
Then it hit me.
I blame it on exhaustion.
But whatever caused it, I had a bit of a mental breakdown.
I’m serious, I totally lost it.
I began to weep uncontrollably.
I felt so alone.

Luckily, the weeping only lasted a minute or so. That’s usually how it works for me. Emotions like that will usually build and build and then they’ll just break free and I’ll have a good cry for about a minute then I’m good to go. Probably not the healthiest way to handle things, right? I mean the build-up of emotions. What if it was anger? Would I just snap one time? Anyways, that’s for another post…

So on a day where we’re supposed to be celebrating the resurrection of our Savior, here I am in a total “woe is me” mood. How selfish am I??

Regardless of whether or not those thoughts/feelings were justified, it doesn’t make them easier to handle. I guess all of the emotions from the week plus being dead tired had finally caught up to me.

Even today I still felt “off.” I know I still feel tired. But I feel alone more than ever now. Maybe it’s just Satan trying to get to me after working so hard to tell Jesus’ story over the weekend?

Either way, I still feel incredibly blessed to be on staff at such a great church and to get to serve alongside some of the most amazing people I know. It was truly an honor to work with everyone involved with the Good Friday and Easter services at Coast Hills.

-i